Thank you and you are absolutely right..when I told my husband this morning how I felt about the sex=free time issue he said it is all just joking and I told him it didn't feel that way to me, it bothers me. ESPECIALLY because of my past, which he should be sensitive of. He said he wouldn't say it anymore, he thought it was ll in good fun. hopefully he doesn't :)
I know exactly of the denial you speak of... I lived it too. It is sometimes seems easier to live a lie then face the truth... but it only makes it worse and eventually you have to face it.
thank you for your support, i've read your messages on other boards and they are very insightful to me. Thanks again!