Re: This is the demon I speak of....

Hi Red,

How old are you? What kind of work do you do?

If you are over 18 (as it appears from your letter): It sounds like you need to be on your own and responsible for your own expenses and support and well being.

It is the only way that you could develop pride and honor. Something that can only come from within, and which will enable you to get to know yourself. To find some peace and order in your life.

If as you say you do not need much in the way of "things" it is far better to start small on your own, and know that you are building your own life.

Then get to know yourself and separate from the craziness you describe - once you are in a better place, you may be able to find a place for some understanding and compassion for your mom. It sounds like a very dysfunctional relationship, and she may have many issues as well.

In staying only because she is rich as you say, you are sacrificing peace of mind and your future in exchange for things you say you really do not need. It seems that the exchange is not a good one.

Give some thought to your future. Sometimes parents are not necesarily equipped to guide you well despite their best efforts. Sadly, some parents themselves need guidance, and are themselves knotted in disabling fear and at a loss for direction.

Good luck in your quest to find yourself....

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