even if it's too much to consider at this point, just rattling it around in the brain will get you back to feeling that *reach* that is good for the soul..
www.dhamma.org/
fantastic idea, eh? Maybe something to work toward...
take heart. this new moon (tonight) will bring a rebirth of some sort...
also look up moonsurfing.com (I think it's "com")
it will give you insight into the energies to work with now...