its not all or nothing, molly. it does not take as long to heal as it does to get sick, so that is in your favor. the key is direction and motion. you want to be moving in a direction, even if it is slowly. you want to choose your direction, not the other way around.

one meal wont get you sick and one meal wont make you well. i made a deal with myself to never go backwards, to always improve every day, even if just a little. there have been days when i have come almost to a complete halt, but i never did. you would have to eat at mcdonalds three times a day for a week to lose any substantial ground. i dont think you have that in you. think about how far you have come and how far you can still go. heck, it was almost a letdown for me to run out of symptoms to treat! now i have to go for increased well being and energy and strength and immune function and longevity. heck, you dont know if your achieving longevity until its too late!!! THATS the bummer.

so when you say this is all for nothing and why bother, well, i know youre lying. stop that. it does not become you, dear lady.


let my people go

Well Molly, I'm in the same boat only with exercise. I worked out really hard all last winter. This spring I was in great shape, then for some reason I quit. Had lots of fun all summer long, no working out. Now I'm starting to work out again, and asking my self why did I quit? Any way I don't have any advice for you. I'm so tired from working out today. But I never stopped oil pulling. So my teeth are in great shape. You helped me get started on that. Thanks.

Good Molly,

A question...

You in any pain?

Because, if you are, that is so all-consuming that no one can be expected to even remember to put on underwear before leaving the house!

Try making dinner when you have a toothache - it's an impossibility!

Secondly...

You got windows to your interior?

I don't.

How do you know exactly which protocols you need, minute-by-minute, and don't?

How do you know when enough is enough, and it's time to let the body do its wondrous magic in all the areas you haven't yet studied...or have never even heard about?

The brain is a very nice instrument, and we wouldn't want to even try to do without it...but, as much as we hate to admit the fact, the brain is NOT in charge.

For want of a better word, 'intuition' is.

Intuition takes all the stress out of 'improving'. Intuition takes us where we have chosen to go...even when circumstances seem to lead us on a wandering path.

Gad, I want to get eloquent here, but my intuition says, 'Molly already knows. She's just being a bit strict and judgemental with herself. Thinks she's supposed to. That's her loyalty to all of us. She doesn't want to disappoint us by being two-faced and not walking her talk.'

You absolutely are 'turning a corner', dear friend. You even tell us out loud in your post...you're thinking about meditation. (Where did you say that?)

We all are. We want to know more, do more, and we want to find out 'how'. The world doesn't seem to tell us. We have to figure it out for ourselves.

We haven't yet understood all of our 'gifts'...that we only have to say it once, and all of our powers, our strengths, are now on duty, focussed entirely upon taking us exactly where we want to go.

We think we are just little specks in the Universe. Wrong. We are the Universe. As without, so within. There is no such thing as a 'part' of energy. Energy can't be divided.

Our brains can work parttime, or misfire. Our minds can focus on this or that. Our understanding can be limited. Even our experience and memory can fade. But our energy belongs to the whole. Once we form a good intention, it is never lost...we become it...in the center of our being...even if we never put it into words again.

Our intentions are who we really are. It is our capability to form intention that gives us life...else we are only lumps of matter, inanimate.

But we don't always notice the 'signs'. We think we see no proofs. We sometimes don't trust our eyes.

Oh dear, I did get 'eloquent'. Shoot!

All I wanted to say is that you couldn't stop being our own good Molly, if you tried.

No more could you forget your intention to be wonderfully well and vibrant and long-lived. Inside you already are...just as your works of art already exist within...a well-spring of possibilities.

Forget the doubts, they don't count for anything.

fledgling

Molly bloom,

You have given so much to myself and many others here on these forums, there is NO WAY you are going to fall back, you have moved too far ahead. After a year, you have made lifestyle changes that will stick with you forever. Adjustments can be made with some creativity. You know you can do it :-)

Maybe what I do can help?

I have established and keep a morning, and work day routine; subject to change. The morning is mine, when I get the exercise, and any health tonics out of the way. At work I keep oils (right now coconut and Apricot), dried fruit, raw cacao, dried seaweed (takes some getting used to), redmond real salt, nuts and seeds at my desk, along with plenty of clean water, herbal teas and a teapot to boil water in, stevia, raw honey, agave nectar, and rapunzle rapadura Sugar (have never used the Sugar yet, but it is there) for those weak moments.

I am most often Raw through to dinner every day bringing fresh raw fruits and vegis to work. I also bring my green alkalizing drinks.

Now these things above are not always followed, adjustments and changes for the expected and unexpected do happen; work lunch meetings, pot lucks, holiday parties, etc. I just do the best I can and pick up where I left off tomorrow.

maybe some of this will help you. It takes time to adjust in the midst of change. Be kind to and love yourself through it. You will come out shining.

grz

Hi Molly,

Maybe it is just the change in weather too that is affecting the motivation and the old body. I have been feeling the same way, and taking a breather from some of the protocols I have been following. Yet, I have been working all along.

You on the other hand are facing both the change in weather, the shorter days, and a new demanding job. It's a lot for the body and spirit to adjust to at once.

I have been worrying that maybe it will be like exercise: once I stop, I don't get back into it. But guess what? I can feel my feet and toes again! After 3 months of numbness. Amazing isn't it? Maybe it just means that we need to let our body do its thing - maybe the old bod needs to show off a little too.

You have learned so much and shared so much good energy that you are now entwined with the CZ community, and as such, falling down and not emerging once again is just not conceivable. You may just be adapting and regrouping to come out much stronger than before. You are a good spirit, and that will always win in the end.

One thing that will not help you is feeling guilty, and stressing over things. In time, you will work in the routines that meant the most to your well being.

I send you good thoughts and energy from this end...

MadArt (ist)

Earlier this week my daughter, 23, wanted me to help her come up with a plan to get rid of some of her health problems and lose weight. She knows I am on curezone everyday and that I do a lot of the cleansing. She has seen me lose weight and feel better.

Right off the top of my head I listed several things that are musts- stop drinking tap water, get rid of the aluminum pan, that type of thing.

Thats when I realized what has happened to me. I have made changes that are non-negotiable, changed my core beliefs about some things. I could drink tea made with tap water at a friends house but I will not live my day to day drinking tea made with tap water. I struggle with eating the right thing, especially when I am overly hungry, but I will definately NOT be cooking it in a microwave.

I just think from what I have read from and about you that you are the same- only further along than I am. You may feel overwhelmed and skip or overlook some of your healthy habits but you can't, or won't, overlook them all. That seems to be what everyone else is saying also. You haven't just been doing some healthy things, you've changed.

I am glad you are here.
I will get there

You're not alone!

What I gleaned from your post is YOUR need for nurturing and an escape from drudgery. I'm with you, sister! Chopping DOES get old, no matter that it is the right, loving thing to do. It is important for us to dodge that responsibility on a REGULAR basis and acknowledge our need for comfort, for nurturing.

As "head cook and bottle washer", I'm sure that the resposibility for food preparation lies with you, as it does with me. & I'm sure that some of these changes have not necessarily been embraced by your loved ones..."Mom! Seaweed AGAIN!!???". So sometimes it's easier to...give in...

So...suggestions? It's funny that you posted this because I am searching for the same answers. How about going out for dinner once a week? I KNOW that there are excellent resturants in the bay area..Also, how about handing over the dinner resonsibilty to your husband and son occasionally...? and if their choices don't appeal...eat only a little...? Personally I've found that some of the most "healing" food is food that does NOT involve work on my part. The relaxation and giving up of resposibility is very important, to me, at least...

I'm also looking for dinner ideas that are EASY, as in keep well and don't require a lot of preparation. Bean soups are good for that & a good winter salad is coleslaw(w/ rice vinegar & sesame oil..). Yams & squash are in season now & VERY easy to prepare. I do love to cook, I'm a GOOD cook, but I really don't want to spend my life in the kitchen!

One way that I HAVE found to stay on track is that I eat only fruit and nuts during the day. Texas ruby red grapefruit...apples..almonds...mmm...it's EASY, requires NO preparation and is cleansing. I also drink lemon water all day...so at least part of my day, I'm *good*.

One thing that I'm going to try to institute is a fast day once a week...give the digestive system(AND the head cook and bottle washer) a rest. I don't see this happening until after the first of the year, however.

you're gonna be just fine, Molly. We all need to find ways(especially we women) to satisfy OUR need for nurturing, for relaxation. AND to reprioritize our "responsibilities".

Hope some of this helps... :)

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Each and everyone of you have given me such incredible feedback, and warmth, and good ideas. I wish that I could give each of you one huge hug, the kind that is reserved for family and old friends. At this moment, none of you feel virtual, you could all have been over for a visit last night helping me with this low period.

Maybe it is the weather...could be a variety of things. And you know, it's sometimes really hard to ask for help, not easy for some people, especially me. (and Paulette that comment was to you too).

Thank you for not making me feel silly. I'm awed by all of you. I have printed all your posts out, and I'm going to read them whenever I sink into the abyss. I have never done this on CZ, that's how important what you have written means to me.

I will persevere. I wish you guys knew me. You'd find I am the strongest woman you can meet, and most of you, if you'd been here last night, would have slapped me upside the head. And then we would had a really really long laugh.

I am definitely checking out that meditation thing. chtheironrainbowbridge thank you so much. Exactly what I was looking for. I live very close to Sonoma, a stones throw really. Now how do I get time off my new job? Hmmm, Madame corporate VP, I really need some immediate time off, 10 days, to meditate....Oh yea, perhaps I need to do some reading and wait for the next session? By the way gang, Madame VP is oil pulling. Don't ask.

I love you all. Thank you. Thank you.

Molly