You HAVE NO IDEA how very much I appreciate and LOVE dogs. I am so very sorry to hear this news. I cried when I read your post. I felt your loss and grief. And... I know how it feels when it's that close. I have had my WONDERFUL, Loving dog companion of 18 years pass in my arms a few years back. Do your crying, no telling how long it will last ... ALWAYS keep and visit the memories of that precious doggie.