Tracey!
Ha it feels like we have not skipped a beat I recall this topic....blank slate.... like a tabula rosa you can project onto your property....garden of Eden.... exactly what you like how you like it. Blank slate does not remain blank for long. Obvious to me your wanting is not in vain. Now that you can see your-self more clearly perhaps that will push the scale over. maybe you just needed to meet your-self...Maybe you will meet other like souls, maybe you already have... who may also be a bit lazy but in mutually beneficial ways. Is that posible'? For example you are good at design but lax to build...the other may be lazy at the designing table but apt in the building department..Thinking...thinking I like your description of the blank table reminds me why I am whittling away what little I have so I may get a new tablet.