as I also said to bluestar it is not that I don't feel or know whether it is fear or love, I just don't think this usual polarization has much to say really. In this we seem to see things a bit differently, as you say that after all everything consists in polar opposites and I instead think dualism is non-existent. Maybe it just words anyway.
About the conflict thing and wanting something different from what I'm experiencing i'm sorry i can't follow you. And also when I said "extreme vital call" I didn't mean for this violent of exaggerated...hmm, maybe too many words, you're right!