I want let everyone who posted know how sincerely thankful I am, especially Krupaclassy's very kind and tender words. This is exactly how I pray this will be. That my Baby is is Heaven and being watched over by very special Angels until we can be reunited again, forever. I want the chance to embrace my child. I ask God everyday please, Forgive me, Please let me someday be with my child in Heaven, Please tell my Baby how much I love him or her, and that I am so sorry. If anyone is reading this and going through an unplanned pregnancy, I beg of you, Please do not choose abortion. The constant grief and suffering I expeience never ends. I grieve every single day of my life. I thought I could handle it, I thought I was making the right choice, I WAS WRONG. I will always hate myself for what I have done but I try to be the best mom I can be to the 3 beautiful sons I did make the right choice with. Thanks Again To All.