Thank you for your kind response to my post. I have really been thinking about everyone's posts and they have got me feeling better. It's great to get different perspectives. It's quite something to conceive that my victims had possibly offered themselves to me with love in order that I could experience myself as a murderer.
Another interesting tidbit for all who have been following this thread. In my original post, I said that I had been born with a lot of shame and I figured this was because of my past life as a victim of sexual abuse/prostitute (in the lifetime just prior to my current life). Just a week or so ago, my elderly mother admitted to me that she had been abused while in foster care as a child. She had lived with this secret all of her life and felt extreme shame. Interesting how, even though we are all theoretically born with clean slates with every incarnation, we choose parents who will perpetuate our issues for us. Mine was shame so I chose a mother who was filled with shame so she could imprint it into my DNA via her emotional mindset while pregnant with me.
Again, thanks for taking the time to articulate all your thoughts on this matter.