weight charts make me feel fat

so i am at 145 and for my frame that says that i am just on the borderline of being fat. but in person i have people asking me if i am ok (health) because my face is thinner and i dont look like most people i see at 145.
doesnt it make a difference if you have a muscular frame? and how much weight difference? (like a muscular person would be alotted 10 pounds over the guidelines or whatever?)
it makes me really depressed because i am just under being overweight after working on it for a year with diet and losing 25-30? pounds(i stopped getting on the scale at one point) that way and then 10 more pounds with fasting...i just feel like i have an almost victory. and i am not liking it.
it makes me want to go back to living on pizzas. at least my tounge would be happy.

and then i feel like an *sshole because there are people that have more work than i ahead of them on losing.....like i should shut up and appriciate what i have accomplished but i cant. especially considering at one tome i was 114 without having to watch anything i ate.
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