If you are ready and willing to perform an enema then by all means do so. It can only hasten the release of toxins and lessen the burden on your body.
Regarding your Depression or the illusionary lack of self-control: You can find a great deal of positive testimony by viewing the Liver Flush and Acne forums. If you are not already aware, each forum has an option near the top of the screen which allows you to view all the recommended messages and these posts have helped me through some difficult times by providing genuine inspiration and motivation.
Hopefully Ms. Minx will answer you soon. Take care.