Re: I'm back! sorry for the late reply

just wanted to add that being the beloved of parents in normal awareness, that is manipulating in various degrees, is source of emotional blockage anyway.
As usual it all comes to the quality of love you give and receive. As I'm seeing now, the reality of every day parenthood takes out of you the best and the worst, if you have unsolved issues you won't be able to protect your child from them, so it's not that your parents didn't put enough effort with you, it's not that Erik and I don't put enough effort with our son. It's the greatest pain to see yourself cause sufferance to your child, and maybe that's why some spiritual people choose not to have children. It is heart-breaking at times.
I think that in our culture raising children is taken a bit too much for granted, as if it was something everybody "normal" is able to do. It is instead really difficult. Maybe this is in nutshell what is making us so nervous and freak out of nothing. We want to do good and we see we can't, not as much as we would like. Being sensitive is a gift and a pain in the ass.