Oh I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time of it mentally, hopinso. I grew up in a household very similar! Food was always used as a consolation and a reward, and sometimes as a substitute or entertainment (you know..."hey mom's busy for a minute - leave me alone! here take this cookie and go sit down")
I too am still struggling with this.
You have such a great attitude, and such strength. You're always here for everyone else, and it's nice to be able to be here for you! Please continue to post daily thoughts, it really helps, as you most likely already know. I'm wishing you continued luck on your road to good health, and sending you good thoughts for your liver flush.