trying to describe x's with o's

I am glad you are getting what I am saying. I feel my NDE is sacred and I just don't want to dishonor the experience by not describing it as accurate as possible. It is like trying to describe x's(spirit) when you only have o's(words) to work with. It can be done but it is not the best substance to use for the effort. You call it a "pitiful jumble of words" and I can tell you this is exactly how it feels to me.

You seem to have come to many of the same "knowing" that I came about with a NDE about God(or whatever you call God) that I have. What woke you up about your perceptions about a ultimate Loving God?