Last question...

You mentioned how you were in the Military and wanted to kill and avenge.. *sigh*
I thought maybe you could give me some insight. It sounds exactly like my ex bf. Though before he became interested in the Military, he and I were in love. I've experienced different levels of love in my whole life, and a lot of times I would find it hard to love someone, but this I gave this guy the purest form of [romantic] love I've ever given anyone. Everything was perfect, even though we lived 250 miles away, we went to every extreme to be together at least a couple times a month, and we still managed to talk to each other every day. This went on for about a year.
It's been since August since we've broken up. Sometimes he'll tell me he's never stopped loving me. And I have never stopped loving him - not in any way shape or form. Then... he announced that he joined the Military, on Active Duty, so he'll be gone... out of this country... for many years.. and the only reason he's ever given me was something silly, like, all of a sudden he's intersted in guns and violence. He likes harming small animals and such. And of course, he wants to be more appealing to women. I found this appaling - it's not like him at all. I wish I could make him understand the meaning of things like love, not violence. I've always wanted him to believe in things like God. But he's an athiest, and there seems to be nothing I can do to change his mind about that, or the Military... I'm afraid I'll never see him again.

I, myself, have never had a NDE but I have an account with CureZone because I suffer from many chronic illnesses that prevent me from doing things like going to school (I get homeschooled) and having a job. Recently I lost all of my friends as well. I feel like I have no purpose.. but all I can think about is helping him. I hope I didn't waste your time by spilling my guts, I guess I just need some advice from a spiritual person.
-Nova Tweet