Re: The Journey to the Light

Im sorry...I know you want to hear the story...but It is difficult to say stuff about the NDE in words...It is like saying describe love....It takes time to digest each part of the experience....I did indeed have an NDE....I have a twelve inch scar on the back of my neck...where my neck was fused...c-4-5-6.
If that proves anything...it just proves that I could have had an NDE. I think the real proof of my experience is the changes in my outlook on life...I may have said I had been in the military...When I joined the military....I had the overpowering desire to destroy communism...I fantasized about flying to Moscow on a one way trip...on a secret mission...to destroy the Kremlin with a nuclear device....(does this sound vaguely familiar..I became a pilot when I was 15...throwing newspapers...sacking groceries...or whatever I could to get to flying lesson...I had to sit on a phone book to see over the das...I was a good pilot. I spent years learning every weapons system...waiting for my chance to do my part to change the world...When Ronald Reagan Spoke of the Evil Empire...I thought my time would soon come....

The change: When I returned from my NDE...I no longer wanted to kill anyone...I left the army...I spent years trying to figure out what God meant for me to do..I know this....I am not a Saint...but I try to make every day...a day where I personally try to give the same type of love to others that was shown to me...I fail to give Love the way it was given to me...but I know that the very effort of giving as much love as you can is not forgotten...This is a long way from my unelightened believer in the American Dream Myth I had before my experience....I know more than anything...that "God" is love.....and that is a long way from what I believed before my experiece...The God I knew before my Experience was an Angry Avenging God...The God I know now is like a cross between a loving mom and a caring daddy...Proof is hard stuff....I guess I will never be able to prove Yah exists to folks hardened against it...If I walked on water...somebody might say it is just a special effect...or mind manipulation....This event happened more than 20 years ago...It is hard to put down in words something that is not in the context of what I am familiar...Try describing love to me...in detail...in the written form...and get back with me..Even though I experienced a NDE, it is not easy to make the words to describe it come out to easy...