I AM Breath?

I'm kinda embarrassed, but here goes. Ok. I'm familiar with some basics of tantra as related in INdian culture but not through practice. Soooo. I was really concentrating on integrating breathing with my partner while...well while you know... "doing it"... I began by listening to my partner's breath and then by feeling the breath on my skin and trying to capture the breath as my own. I then started to inhale my partner's exhale and exhaled as my partner inhaled. I usually sing Bhajans or chant mantras so I began to do so using my partner's name. I realized quickly that I was inhaling the words "So" and exhaling to "ham"

The next thing I know is that my partner has stopped breathing. I looked around and we were existing in a different state. Kinda "matrix like time" where our actions and reactions seemed to happen in a normal fashion but time did not pass. My partner stated that with my mantra I had somehow brought a new awareness, wherein we had always existed yet had not been quite aware of before. Also that we Now could enjoy it. My partner began to sip some form of nectar from my bellybutton and I realized I was not breathing either. My partner looked up and stated. "We are existing in between breaths green and yellow we exist rolling from our foreheads" I had the realization that we could stay like this forever, yet I was worried about others, those who existed outside of us in consensual reality finding us in existing in this slow motion state and not breathing.

Why did this happen? Is my partner's real name Soham? what form of nectar did my partner find in my bellybutton? what does the "existing in between breaths" statement mean? it sounds sooo familiar! I Am confused and I need help. Please answer as quickly as possible!

J.

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