I'm pretty much alone. I do have a few friends I can talk to, but no one I can really open up with. My church friends are good people, but tend to be somewhat judgmental when I start to ask questions. Your compassionate replies and an unexpected phone call from someone I haven't seen in a while have helped. Its just that this pain and weakness is so awful. I used to be very active and a leader at both church and work, now I can hardly walk.