Re: To: Alikat

Oh Alikat: thank you for caring. You know I have been dealing with this for so long, my emotions almost come and go..Things are fine now..We talked and I told him I wasn't going to put up with his mental and physical abuse.He looked sad and said he would try and watch himself..Like I said the physical hasn't really happened for along time..Maybe 2 years ago was the last time he struck me..But the emotional is almost weekly..He gets so nasty when he gets under pressure or nervous..I truly think he needs help dealing with emotional issues. He doesn't know how to deal with everyday problems such as car problems or simple things like saying nO to sales men.. I just think he expects to much from me and I am reaching the end, I would love someone to take care of me..He does financially, but I do everything else..The lord knows how I feel and what is in my heart..and the Lord knows how my husband feels and what is in his heart..I trust he will work it all out.one way or another..and as far as feeling towards that other guy I think they were just because he showed real concern of my situation..He is a cop and I would see him around town and we would talk about highschool and stuff,and than we would talk about situations now and you know goofy stuff..I shouldn't have told him about my situation because than he started worrying about me, and It made me feel good that he was caring..But I haven't seen him for a while and you know out of sight out of mind..God worked that out..praise his name...
I have been on the liver cleanse site because I just cleansed and I always like to report in..I have gallstones(so they say)but actually I think I have a stressed out liver..I am alot better since coming to this website.
I thought if our sex was better maybe our marriage would be better that's why I went on the sex site..but I need to be here on the prayer request site, I have been holding all this in for to long.I am embarassed that I am dealing with this with my husband, so I haven't told anyone..My sister suspected along time ago I think..I had a black eye and she asked me if my husband hit me..I denied it..I made up some wacky story..and still will not tell her ever..Not many people know, because I am embarassed and ashamed..
God is working it out..I am releasing things and that is good..
I have been long winded, I'm sorry..I must run to see what the kids are doing..Thank you for caring..And may God pour out many blessing upon you...
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