Dear lynbur,
Sorry to hear about your situation. I know how it feels to not feel good enough. I had a period of time when I despised myself for everything. Please try to realize that you are good enough. You're the best you can be and that your husband and children love you. I know it's hard, believe me. I never would have believed it either if someone told me that 7 years ago, but it's true. I'm sure you're a wonderful person with a lot to give.