There was a minister that I knew of one day who decided to go back to drinking. God sent prople to try and get him to go back to being a Christain. He wouldn't do it so God took his life rather then loose him. As King Saul did when he left the Good Lord, God took him home to heaven to be with Samuel, his prophet.
Remember that when you hear the Word of God that it shows who you are. Like the eagle egg that was put with some chicken eggs, they all hatched and lived like chickens. The eagle know no better but one day the mother eagle flew over and screamed. That little eagle knew then it didn't belong in the barn yard. So you have heard the voice of God, made sure of your calling, and go on in the love of God. That walked of faith and your love of God shows who you are. God Bless!