My heart goes out to you, and I fully understand your anxiety. I myself and family are suffering from anxiety because my mum is very sick and she has also been having chemotherapy since Feb, she has liver cancer, and small mets in the lungs, she is having severe back pains, and we are STILL wating for bone scan results, so we too are now looking at going down the alternative route, because she just is not getting better, although we have followed a strictly organic diet, juicers, ozone water, supplements. It may have supported her, but it certainly has not rid the cancer, so we are considering laetrile with high dose Vit C IV treatments, and/or the gerson therapy.