My doctor says I have six to eight months left to live.

Hello,

My name is Shirley Botley and I'm 31 years old. I have a beautiful fourteen year old son and a beautiful seven year old step daughter. I've been married less than two years. After seven months of marriage I started to have irregular bleading I went to my doctor and she did a pap which came back negative then sent me for two ultrasounds and they also came back fine. She then did a cervical scrape and came to the sad realization that I did indeed have cervical cancer. I was then seen by "The Best oncologist in the L.A area" I wouldn't know. Anyway he first was very optimistic and said it was the first stages of the cancer and right away said I need to have a partial hysterectomy which would save my ovaries. He said that taking my ovaries would send me into menopause and that I was to young for that. He scheduled me for the surgery and on January 18th of 2005 I had the surgery. He said that everything was fine and the they did get everything but they did have to remove a few lymphnodes that were enlarge near the pelvic bone. When opening me up they saw that the cancer was at a stage 3b which is pretty advanced. Three weeks after the surgery I started six weeks of radiation five days a week and once a week for seven weeks did eight hours of chemotherapy (cisplatin). All this was done together because they said it would work better. I was done with all the treatment on april 15 2005. I have been feeling great I still feel great except for last weekend when I felt a little pain in the lower pelvic area. It wasn't excrutiating but annoying. I took myself to the emergency just to be safe. I told them my history and so they did the basic blood test and thought I might have appendicitis. They did say that I had a little urninary tract infection and that they would give me Antibiotics for that. They decided to be safe and to a ct scan which showed enlarged lymph nodes. The emergency doctor was kind of vague so I waited to hear from my doctor to look at the report. The doctor that i'm speaking about is the doctor who gave me my chemo treatments, that is what he specializes in. The doctor then called me the following monday and said that the cancer had returned in my abdomen but he still wanted me to be sure and take a P.E.T. SCAN. This chemotherapist doctor called me into his office on Friday and told me that I have two 4cm tumors in between a major artery in my abdomen and a major vein. He then told me that I have two smaller ones in the lower abdomen near the kidneys. After this he told me that he gives me about six to eight months to live and thats if I do the surgery again and stronger treatments.
Somebody help me...I can't wrap my brain around this. I need to try something else before they cut me open again. I just feel like i'm just another statistic for them. I asked if I should be on a special diet and they said that I have no diet restrictions. I asked if I should not have any alcohol and they said "go ahead it will make you feel better" When I spoke to the oncologist not the chemotherapist and this is before the six to eight months to live news he said that he did know one thing for sure and that was that "diet and alcohol have nothing to do with the cancer spreading or coming back." If anyone advice or information that can help me out and give me some hope I would gladly appreciate it. I want to live for my child my husband and my family. I'm not ready to die. Saturday night I literally had an anxiety attack. I've never felt this scared in my life. My family members keep telling me that my attitude has to be positive if not it will get worse. Someone explain to me how to do that when someone tells you your going to die much much sooner than you thought. Please if anyone has a clue please let me in on it.