Don't lose hope. Hope is all we have and keeps us in the game. As long as we have hope we can continue to fight. Many people have recovered parasite infections as bad as yours. I've read about them here on CZ. There was a lady on CZ who had brain parasites along with every other parasite you could imagine. She said she cured herself by using a product called Homozon. Have you tried this? I just started taking it about 2 weeks ago. She says it took 3-4 months but all the parasites did die.