I'm basically a hermit. No social life or anything. I only go out when it's absolutely necessary and even that's rare. It's depressing but I'm kinda used to it by now. I know that's not a healthy way to live by isolating myself from everyone but I also know that for me to heal my lips I have to stay at home for the duration.
You're right, the future is still out there, anything can happen but from what I've seen, if done right, my lips are likely to heal within a month. The thing that gets me is that I always f*** up along the way and then have to restart the process all over. My lips would have been healed by the end of January this year when I was applying GIAB but I smiled too much one day and the barrier cracked open. My lips were healing but I managed f*** it up.
Right now I'm just a shadow of the person that I really am. I don't even know the real me anymore.