I've found via my counseling training and 20 years experience, the more reactive, the closer to home it is.
I guess you must be realizing that now you'll be watched by most folks here who aren't fellow employees (if you are one)---to see if in fact you are here just as a regular guy.
You're just digging that hole deeper, is all. You're doing it, not me---I'm just making observations, eh?