I hear you :-) i personally got burnt from doing too much coffee enemas. They have their benefits, but things to remember - they were originally designed for cancer patients and overtime they can depleted your body from essential minerals as well as hurt the gut flora. I suffered from serious candida most of my life, and the key point for me when I actually started to heal was when I started to keep things simple. The good news is that you have a great spirit and strong passion to heal - that is the most important thing. :-)