I am terribly sorry that you've had such a terrible time, particularly with a very diseased parent.
First of all, you did not have a choice in whom your parent(s) would be. You had no control over this and you do not have control over how your mother behaves, treats you, makes choices and decisions, etc.......she is what she is. You did NOTHING to "deserve" this, either. It's just what everyone experiences with the Human Condition. Not to minimize your experiences and current health issues, but it is not uncommon in such an environment of dysfunction.
I would strongly suggest that you consider getting out of this environment, if there's any way possible. Go stay with a relative or even ask your psychiatrist what your options might be. The environment that you're living in is what is making you so sick - this is a fact, not an opinion. It is a fact that it is typically females living in long-term abusive relationships that develop auto-immune diseases. I have been diagnosed with Rheumatoid and Psoriatic Arthritis and, at one point, was literally unable to take care of myself as a result of these conditions. But, I've been doing better since I got involved in some intensive trauma counseling with a specialist.
Then, it might be a very wise option to stop attempting to "heal" yourself, at this point. RECOVERY comes first - and, that means recovery from the abuses that you have endured throughout your life, to date. This is why a strong counseling therapist (psyCHOLOGIST, not psyCHIATRIST) is almost a life-saving imperative for anyone who has suffered a dysfunctional family environment. Seeking counseling and processing the traumas will release a lot of the anxiety, etc., that is part and parcel of dysfunction.
Another option is to start over with your personal care using BENIGN rituals like oil-pulling, and other non-invasive protocols. Some of the things that are recommended can be very, very, VERY unhealthy, and taking 3 enemas of ANY kind on a daily basis is 100% unhealthy. It is interrupting the body's natural physiological functions, even if you believe that you have candida. Candida means NO sugar of any type - refined, in natural occurance, honey, fruit, starches (potatoes, pastas), etc..........no carbs of any kind. This is a challenge and can only be done one day at a time.
My best and most sincere blessings to you - help yourself to recover, and the healing will follow, spiritually, physically, emotionally, etc........
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Iodinelmnop, I believe that you are well-meaning with your "advice," here, but it may be helpful to read the entire mind-body-spirit message of the original poster.
Telling people what they should or should not do are deep waters to tread in the event that we are making improper mandates to people, online. We cannot see these people with our own eyes - we cannot hear the tone of their voices, view their body language, or palpate their lymph nodes for swelling. We only have typed words to go by without any actual data to confirm or refute self-diagnosis, particularly in someone who is only 19. At 19, there is a tremendous amount of angst and transision, especially as conveyed by the original poster. She has been living with a lifelong source of trauma which can (and, typically does) create horrific physical symptoms if the traumas are ignored and left unprocessed. Self-diagnosing can be a very dangerous endeavor.
Seeking help and guidance from a practiioner - holistic, herbalist, allopathic, whatever - is more practical. Additionally, if the original poster is seeking the services of a psychiatrist, chances are that she's been prescribed a load of psychotropic medications which can actually create tremendous physiological side effects with some very serious consequences, since psychiatry has long-since moved OUT of the business of treating clients, and INTO the business of medicating them, regardless. Some natural approaches can (and, do) actually create terrible reactions in individuals who are taking psychotropic medications like anti-anxiety meds, anti-depressants, mood stabilizers, etc. It's very, very dicey territory and the "professionals" are just now beginning to see long-term effects of using these medications.
So..........in my most humble opinion, it is practical and wise to share compassion and concern, but very dangerous to advise on the internet.
Iodineperson, you wrote, "Anyway I find it a little disturbing that you would try to stop Dawn's progress," and it is untrue. I'm not trying to "stop" anything. Your response is about your being "right," and not allowing for a balance in protocols and personal recovery. What makes you believe that you know what I have or have not done for my personal health? How do you assume to know what would or wouldn't be of help to me? Did you read any of the other responses that reflected a concern that "Dawn" could actually be harming herself? What a nasty and arrogant posture to take when someone makes a suggestion that doesn't fit into your personal processes. This isn't about you. It's about a young woman trying to find help, and that means a balance of all things - protocols, emotional health, physical and spiritual (NOT religious) well-being.
To the original poster, "Dawn," I wish you the very best and you'll sort this out, in dute time, making the right choices for yourself. Trust your instincts whenever you're able to - in any dysfunctional FOO (family of origin), we are often programmed to ignore what our gut instincts are telling us. Your concerns are valid and there are a number of things that you can do to find a grounded balance for yourself, personally. We are each individuals and what may work for one person may not work for another, which is why a lot of allopathic approaches take time to sort through on the medical end.
There is one thing that is consistent across all boundaries when it comes to dysfunctional FOO's, and that is that narcissistic and sociopathic parents create a dreadful emotional and physical morass for their offspring to navigate. That you are reaching out and doing what you can to change things is a huge plus for you - it means that you are willing to do the work, whatever that may be for you, personally.
If you can get out of your current living situation, you may see a change in all of the symptoms - it's possible. Best and brightest blessings to you, "Dawn."