Mira, thank you for your vote of confidence - I'm not all that confident, right now, but it'll come back in due time.
As for finding a partner, that is NOT going to happen, ever. I won't allow it, I won't imagine it, I won't entertain the notion on any level. The carnages that the exspath inflicted are myriad, and I won't ever, ever, ever seek or allow another "partner," again. I have chosen two very, very bad people in a row. I need to fix what ails me, and be happy without a partner. And, no....I do not miss Mr. Bondage, whatsoever. How could I miss someone that never really existed? LOL