hi i am 37 and my life was great then one morning when i was 17 i woke up with this smell i spent so much time going back and fore the doctors he told me there is nothing that can cause a body odour like i described it mostly smells fishy sometimes it smells like poo and sometimes it smells like urine when i was 21 i couldnt take it anymore so i tried to kill myself luckily my mum knew i was really down that night and came to check on me but the tablets had already got into my system and i woke up in hospital 2 days later very angry that i was still alive the doctors locked me up in the mental health unit because they thought that i was imagining it all and were afraid that i would try to kill myself again i kept telling them i shouldnt be locked up in here i should be at the other end of the hospital having tests to find out why i smell but of course they took no notice of me finally after a month being locked up in there i got out my medical records say i have psycotic Depression pfffhttt what a joke i am perfectly sane it took many years to get 8used to living with this horrible illness and like you i dont know how ive managed to hgold a job down but the way i look at it now is i have as much right to work as anyone else and i would NEVER try to take my own life again because of other peoples ignorance and cruelty it has left me with a phobia of crowded places also i hate anyone sitting close to me also ive been single all my life ive had men ask me out on dates but i allways knock them back becuase i think to myself why would anyone want to be with me i got tested about 5 years ago but had to go all the way to london and i live in wales the test came back negative but i know i have it ive lived with it for so long and was strangley relieved when i realised i was not the only person on this planet living with this which i thought i was for many years when i found out about tmau i went to my doctor and told him ive been coming to you begging to help me for years but he told me basically i have a mental problem not a physical one just goes to show they may think they know evrything but clearly they do not he had never heard of tmau before can you believe that and hes a doctor !!! ive never tried a restricted diet before but am gonna start it this weekend anfd hopefully will notice a reduction in the odour soon fingers crossed i dont know if anyone else with tmau has noticed this but ive noticed if i sit in a room when someone is smoking that makes the smell ten times worse ? i often think to myself if nobody had a sense of smell then my life would be fine . please dont give up becuase we have as much right as anyone else to live and enjoy life ive cut out al the negative two faced people in my life who thought it was funny to take the mick out of me and call me names it is because of people like them that i tried to take my life years ago . i didnt tell any of my friends and family about my problem until i came across an article in the newspaper about tmau but since ive told them all i felt sooo much better and wish i had told them many years ago even though i try not to talk about it cos if i do i just start crying and get really upset x