Thank you for your support. I have fallen with bad people because I didn't listen to my inner warnings and followed other's advice.
I do wake up every day and no matter how rotten I feel about my situation I know I am getting better. My anger is breaking free enough to motivate me to get better. And my attention is focused more on me and not what others want (trying but not working). I am stopping now and saying this is where I am, even if I am in a bad place and being hurt I know I can get out. It is hard because when i heal I realize how hurtful the people who raised me were. With the good comes the bad.
I am sorry about your stroke. that is a hard thing to overcome.