Bad year

Hi,
I just need to be heard and that is all. for the last year to be exact today I have been homeless. I listened to the wrong people's advice and don't blame them as I am the one who followed what they wanted me to do unknowinly at times. I also am suffering and remember terrible childhood abuse and am overwhelmed by it all and feeling helpless. My family I was talking to used to put so much pressure on me to do things for them. I guess I am starting to take back the control and do things I want to do.

Also, being stalked and harrassed by people. Makes me feel insecure and ashamed of myself. Reading how to defend myself against bullies. Don't take much care of my adult self and am angry at my inner child and don't listen to her.

I just bounced a check and have no money to cover it. I am so far in debt I could cry and have no job prospects.

I am taking Albendazole to recover from a bad parasite/yeast infection. I have no friends and the ones I do have a superficial and laugh at me.

I make the wrong decisions and beat myself up over them. I get abused by others. I just feel like giving up most of the time.

I work in a very bad place and feel bad about working there. I am judged a lot and criticized. I am worried my car will quit working and then I will really be homeless.

I am trying not to feel victimized or used. I am very mean to my inner self and feel frustrated. nothing is changing and everyone keeps saying it will economically. Getting myself hurt when it is not nessasary