Re: Bad year
You've been through a lot and I'm sorry to hear that things still aren't going well for you.
Yet, I'm confused. I take it you're working full time? Yet you live in your car? And you're in debt? What I'm wondering is---if you do have a steady job, shouldn't you be able to find a place that you share with roommates at least? Can you find a second, part-time job? If you can do that, it will help with your money issues.
I also realize that in a bad economy, if you need a job, you often have to take what comes along (as long as it is honest work!). Have you tried looking for a better work situation? If so, hang on to the positive thought that a better job will come along.
Reading your post, it's clear that you are situationally depressed---and understandably so. Have you looked into some counseling? It is available even if you don't have the money for it.
Something to think about---bullies are attracted to people who are depressed and/or have low self-esteem. When you feel badly, try as you might, you still give off that vibe.
Take back your power. If others bully you, hold your ground. Also, make every effort to avoid those types of people.
Since you are open to reading up on helpful things you can do, see if you can get the book "Ask and It is Given" by Esther and Jerry Hicks. Stick with the book and you will learn how to improve both your mood and your outlook. They even discuss how to cope with a bad work situation.
Best of luck with everything and do keep a positive thought!