I am in a new fast now.
I have been intermittently just trying to get a longer fast going.
I get started and then I get miserable, intolerably so, and quit.
1 1/2 to 2 weeks ago I achieved like 4.5 days.
This was a personal record.
Then i had scaary food episodes. Just like 3 of them , 3 huge overeating episodes and not , I don't know, not a holocaust but not nice. I was just gettting a little backlash...
I am struggling to keep this current fast I am in day 3 I am halfway decided to just go to the supermarket because I am jsut so emotionally miserable.
I do not know what is going to happen
sorry about all this
fasting is just something I have to figure out a strategic way of learning I guess though i am jsut trying to get myself sort of acclimated to it now...
for detox i use enemas and these give relief but I am often too tired/lethargic to do them
it's crazy to eat before i have fasted long because this jsut returns me right back to my toxic state -- yet I cannot stop doing this
so i dunno what is going to happen tonight. i am totally miserable.
i just have so much to figure out about how to do this -- the trouble seems centered in my fearful thoughts that prevent me from preparing strategiccally for a fast -- by eating say 1 meal a day and lightly... scared to do that and THEN fast... scared of losing too much weight basically. ButI must fast for my health then this is perfectly safe and the only safe thing to do. I just don't know what to do.