Re: Re-experiencing Repressed Memories, Adrenal Fatigue, and Suicidal Feelings

You will get better. I was the same exact way and gained some weight. I wanted the pain to stop so I ate. It is funny to get healthy we have to clear our minds but the mind is full of so many awful memories, that we choose instead to go back to eating and unhealthy and then the pain stops. So maybe we have this big bad genie in our brain.

I wrote to people and said I want to die and this is so wrong what is wrong with me. After I realized it was self destruction and it would soon pass I waited. It did get better after awhile but let me tell you it came with much pain and suffering. But you must hang on and be patient. You must know that there are bright tomorrows coming. It is a test for you, and it will all pass. If you feel like have a ice cream, eat but sparingly and if you feel like doing something just do it. Yesterday, I screamed at everyone cause I am in awful pain. My cat died, my best friend. So I needed to scream. I needed to tell someone I hurt. So I am suggesting the same thing to you. You need to write about this and scream and holler and your real friends will understand and then tomorrow you will feel lighter I promise, well maybe you will have less friends but hey you will be well and alive. You will survive. Journal your plight and go open a blog. I know I have 4 and yes 4 forums too. I am the mod of Sara's Soup Kitchen, black seed forum and two Islamic forums. I have a blog about Islam, one about celebrities and one about recipes of the rich and famous and one about animals and oh my God forgot, I have one about longevity.

See things do get better and yo do survive, just takes some internet hugs and good wishes. So go open a blog and tell everyone you hurt and tell everyone what you will be doing tomorrow or just tell them to go to blazes. It is your life enjoy everyday and every moment with no regrets.

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