The Unaspected Planet - Mercury
Elly...I found some stuff on the unaspected planet (that means that none of your planets connect with your Mercury - not in a challenging way OR in a harmonious way).
It is pretty interesting!
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"In Search -- Preoccupation
An unaspected planet has to do everything by itself. At first it even seems like the other subject matter inside us doesn't see this piece of us. That's why we don't get to know it very quickly.Somewhere, though, deep inside, we do know it's there. This isn't so much a conscious knowing, but more an implicit knowing. It makes us tend to keep searching for that piece of ourselves, that planet. To our feeling, it is a "faraway" given, and if this concerns a skill or activity, we'll have the idea that we aren't ready to do it by a long shot and "maybe never will learn," without there being any demonstrable proof of this. That inner feeling is usually pretty strong, and if one little thing goes wrong, we tend to lend it a lot more weight than necessary." by Karen Hamaker-Zondag
Isn't that wild Elly! You HAVE been searching...and you have finally 'found' your Mercury in Gemini! It's a stunning communicator, idea-conceptualizer...Hmmm. (I know that you've found something else, too...I wonder if that is related to this Mercury as well?) hmmmm...
"Another hallmark of unaspected planets is that they are often accompanied by feelings of insecurity. This insecurity is connected to a number of things. In the first place, the idea of "being in search of," that often expresses itself in a kind of restless feeling, I sometimes try to describe as a feeling of "hunger," or "yearning," or "being unfulfilled" in the area of that planet. A longing, too, but for what we don't know. It can't be described; it is diffuse and vague, and we can't really make anybody see what it's all about. Even if we have everything our hearts desire, this feeling can still be there. So it has absolutely nothing to do with external circumstances or with whatever we've achieved in life."
Have you been yearning, among other things, to be able to communicate your great, fabulous, insightful ideas (all mercury) to others in an exchange?? I can't help but think that all these communications on Curezone are exactly what you've needed to become more full YOU!
love T