I think this is how I'm being guided into helping hubby stay alive or going. I get to a certain point where I just "can't stand it anymore" cuz he's having so many problems and I "slip him a mickey" on occasion (so-to-speak) of iodine/iodide.
And then the "free will thing" gets discussed again, and I stop. I really am beginning to think that this is how it gets "played out", at least in MY home - I do believe I'm meant to do the things I do - just don't always understand the whys or hows.
Hubby does suffer so, but maybe it's his karma??? Who knows - I just hate it being "my" karma, too! lolol
Or simply the wife in me giving him what I think he needs. After all, I've been serving him up the heart-attack-on-a-platter for so damn long...because it's what HE wants - CERTAINLY not because I think he needs it or should have it!!!