Day 7 of my water fast

I am feel ok. I feel a bit willowy but very stable and strong like a tree as if this fast is making my inner core of my body and soul stronger.

Yesterday was an up and down battle for me emotionally. I talked to K. off and on all day and I was suprized when he asked me if I would like to help him clean his house, since it was all moved out. I offered last week, but he didn't take me up on it. I asked him if it was a good idea. He said probably not, but he still wanted me to come over.

I prayed and prayed before I left to drive to his old house. It was sad to see it empty and I was wondering how I could feel seeing him again since we broke up. Seeing him again made me do nothing but smile.

Well, I helped clean while him and his friend dropped off trash. I think he was suprized how much I got done is such a short period of time. Vaccumed all the rooms upstairs, the stairs, the bedroom downstairs, the living room. And when he got back I was cleaning the bathroom. I even sweep the floor, but he didn't want to mop it, so I told him that I would. He wouldn't let me. He told me just to slow down and take a break. I guess I had more energy then I thought and keeping myself busy preventing me from thinking about him too much.

I went and dropped stuff off at his mother's house where she had made dinner for us. Sigh. I so love his family. K. tried to get me to eat something, but I told him I wasn't hungry. He said that his mother made some for me. I told him I wasn't expecting to be fed and I wasn't hungry. He just eye balled me. He then turned to his mother and said. "She probably didn't eat anything for Thanksgiving either, regardless if she went over to her friend's house or not." I just looked at him and said nothing. I think he feel bad that our breakup might have caused me not to eat. He has no idea that God wanted me to fast in order to set things right according to His Will. It is my prayer and fasting that will make it clear for me what His will is for me and which steps I need to take to further His kingdom.

I guess I got a little bit worked up over things and started gagging. K. was concerned, but I just drank some water, because I knew my ketone levels must have been high. I think he noticed that my face looked thinner then the last time he saw me on November 19th.

I checked my Ketone strips and I was not as high as I thought I was, but I am burning fat. I have a couple breakouts on my face, which never happens and I was horrified to see three red bumps on my forehead, my cheek and my chin! I have shown any other detox sign like breakouts like I get on my back. I wonder how bad it might get. I usually get them about on day 12 or 14.

It doesn't seem like day 7. I guess after day 4, days just blend and I dont' think about it much. I can smell everything though. One of the attorneys had lunch that smelled like White Castles. I smelled a burger, onions and pickle! And later on, I smelled a chocolate like someone had a chocolate bar. LOL I love my new sense of smell. I just know the next week, if I last that long, will be hard, because I will be in full detox mode and I WILL feel horrible as my body started exspelling more and more out of my body.

I just have to keep a prayful mind and keep my eyes on the Lord. It was so hard to do that last night with K. Just relaxing and watching a movie with him, made me want to lean into him, like I used to. Though my heart was full of love, I remained very cold, because I know I am not want he wants.

I hope everyone gathers the strength to continue or start their fast. I am sorry if this post is too long. I don't want to offend. Sorry.

God bless,



I drank about 45 oz of water