Re: I am NOT fasting anymore until..

Thank you for your reply and concern. When I fasted many years ago I was an agnostic and was not seeking God. I did not have the weight problem that I do today. I also was not as toxic. When I fasted for the 20 days I did everything all wrong during the re feeding. I was an agnostic at this time and was very ignorant on how to fast properly. Because I gained a lot of weight after my 20 day fast and could not seem to control it, I stopped fasting for years. I was afraid if I continued to fast my weight problem would get worse and I did not know who to believe. There were those that told me that I was ruining my health by fasting and that my muscles including my heart was being eaten up by it. Now I know all that is not true. When I finally realized that there is a God, I came back to the Lord a mess. I realized that fasting has got to be a good thing too as it is in the Bible. I started doing research on it and now I am really convinced. The problem is now it is much harder for me to fast. I think because I am older, heavier and more toxic. I had to start all over again training my body to fast. The day I joined this forum I was very mad at myself for breaking a fast with prayer earlier than I had planned. I had a major problem that I needed to have resolved and that is why I was fasting and praying. Not only did I break the fast early, but I started binge eating which really made me mad at myself. So, I called myself a glutton to the highest degree. I don't often binge eat to that degree but it was probably due to the emotional problem that I was going through at the time that caused it. I needed to hear from God and didn't think I had a chance after that mess up. Boy, was I wrong. In His great mercy He answered my prayer in a BIG way and completely resolved the problem which was a major, major one and let me add that He did it very quickly. The day I joined the form I thought that I needed to fast desperately to hear from God and I thought the support may help me since I felt that I failed the fast. As it turned out God honored even the short fast and answered my prayer. I definitely don't feel like I am going in circles. I have made a lot of progress. God is not one to hand things out on a silver platter as the devil is. It is a battle and a struggle and God makes me fight hard for some things. So, I will not be too concerned if someone gets there before me. I just want to get where God wants me to go and I want to get there his way. I know He wants me to fast and I am working on it. I may be slow as a turtle with all my imperfections, but I plan to keep going in the right direction. Yes, I do have a food addiction and I am not totally delivered yet, but I am doing much better. I hope this clears up some of the confusion. You will need to see my later years as a restart in order to understand. When I spoke of the 7 day fasts and the 20 day fast that was years ago when I was an agnostic. Thanks for all your hard work on the post. Thanks for expressing your true feelings.
Rainy
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