I'm new here and came across your post. I see that it's an old one and I'm not sure if you still need help with this or not, but I feel that I must share something with you. You say that you believe in the power of intention and that you've never had any success with all the manifestation techniques, that right there should tell you that something is wrong with this. It doesn't work for a reason. I don't mean to "bash" your religion or what you believe in any way, but if it's not working for you then maybe you should try something else. I'm not familiar with what you believe , but to me it sounds decieving. Do you have "Spiritual Guides" in this belief? Mental illnesses can be caused by health problems, like what you find on here, but the spiritual realm also has something to do with it. Have you ever heard of Deliverance (not the movie)or Spiritual Authority? Jesus can set you free from everything that has made you miserable. And if you want to see real power work in you life I would be happy to help you.