Re: help winning my love and best friend back
Steverob, it's not my intention to sound harsh, here, but centering your life around one person is a very, very emotionally dangerous practice. Yes, partners should be confidantes and trust one another, but declaring at 18 that your young partner is your "best friend" is screaming that you're lacking in other healthy relationships. When we center our lives around a single person and have no other good, healthy relationships with other people, we give too much emotional power to that person.
Yes, it's going to hurt, and you're going to become angry, and you're going to grieve, and you're going to move on and learn to develop HEALTHY relationships because you're going to become self-confident and self-assured.
When you have become self-confident and self-assured, you'll be better prepared to develop a healthy relationship with someone who is more mature and ready for the same committment. First loves always seem as if they're going to last forever and young folks have a very hard time understanding that this is Nature's Way of preparing them for the person who will be a lifelong partner.
You will be just fine after a while. Learn to make healthy friendships and why not try to avoid centering your world around one person.