Thanks for the support, Doc Without the forum, I would be SOL. I do have a couple of friends who don't think I am a total nut case, but they are definitely in the minority. I have read everything you have on your web site - all of the essays and listened to you mp3. I probably need to buy the book just to keep all of this straight in my head. I use books to keep me sane sometimes by rereading things over and over to imprint it in this brain. But, I truly don't know that I could stay the course without the knowledge of all the people here and the couple of friends that I have who are supporting me. It really puts you out of the main - I never really was in the main, but this really throws one over the edge. But then, it is a matter of one's health - not anyone else's!!!!! I just feel really tired sometimes. Funny though, it is not the bone-crushing tired that I felt when I had cancer before - it is just I feel tired - of anxiety, insomnia, pills, not absorbing my food, not knowing what this is, just tired.