I want to thank everyone who has offered advice and been very kind.
I am finding that I cannot read any more. I need someone to tell me I won't have to go through more surgery or cancer, and no one can tell me that. I find I am getting more and more upset reading of the things that could happen, not what might NOT happen. I am on several boards searching for hope I am not going to find, and I am leaving them all.
This is too hard.
Thank you again everyone. I truly appreciate your kindess.
Val