Re: My Story...

Yes, I know what you are saying. It's like I just want to please & I don't know how to say no until it's too late. I was seeing a therapist for a while but it just made things worse. IT was during my fall semester of law school & every time I saw her it would just bring up more issues. Talking about it made me feel sad & confused & then I would just withdraw & stay inside & be afraid. It's like in "dealing" w/it I lost my ability to function in my day-to-day life. And being a student trying desperately not to fail my classes, it didn't help for me to be stirring all those emotions. But one thing my therapist did say that made sense to me is like I suffer from the frog in hot water syndrome. If you put me in very hot water I will recognize the heat & jump out. This is the same for my personal interactions because if I sense danger or extreme harm right from the get go I will avoid the situation, I will not put myself in unnecessary danger or will be sure to get out. On the other hand however, if you put me in cold water & slowly heat it up I will not move. I will eventually boil to death. It's like if things start out okay & then I get smaller 'red flags' as things move along, I will excuse them or find a way to write them off. I get too scared to stick up for myself. I don't want to overreact or cause drama or upset the other person. But then by the time I realize where the situation has led, I'm already there & it's too late to get out. By that time when I say "no" or resist, I'm already too easy to overpower. I don't know what to do to change this though. So far I have just been avoiding interacting w/people all together. But this isn't how I want to live. I want to be able to enjoy life but I'm so afraid of getting hurt or exploited again. Any comments or advice would be great! Thanks again for the support:) Tweet