Thank you so much for your kind words. When you posted about being suicidal yesterday I wept for you, I could not even make a comforting post to try and help. I was at the same point. It was not so much that I wanted to die, I just did not want to go on living the way I am. I hope you can stay strong and keep searching for answers. I believe they are out there for both you and plasticat, and hopefully, for the rest of us. The secret is not give up even in moments of greatest discouragement. One of the great things about Curezone is that hurting people can reach out in comfort and understanding as well as trying to help with practical advice. I pray you will soon find the answers you are searching for and all the happiness and joy you deserve.