Yes, I've been in the belly of the whale and the whale is starting to cough me up...major transformation is unfolding. And it doesn't all feel good...hardly.
LOL.."continually hedging our bets and dragging the old stuff"...yep, I know THAT one real well...and the cleverness...and the difficulty trusting...working my way through it...often in the dark.
At least my comfort zone is no longer comforting and the vice I'm in is forcing the issue of surrendering... reluctantly welcomed...and trying to make room for the fear/discomfort and the excitement.
I know I'm vulnerable...and wanted to push it a bit further by posting. I understand strength in weakness.
Nutty...not at all! Just one of many mysterious paradoxes!!!