Any Suggestions?

Tony, Louella, Anyone ... you all seem like such kind, knowledgable people. I generally don't reach out this way, but here goes.

I've let my life gradually fall apart over the last year, especially the last 6 months. Lots of changes occurred: I moved, ended a very unhealthy relationship, changed jobs. It felt like I was going in a very positive direction, but then early this past summer, I just collapsed, felt drained, exhausted. I've lived such a healthy lifestyle these last few years: eat lots of organic produce, salmon, flax-seed, the whole gamut - you all know it well! I also work out nearly every day, do weight training and cardio. I'm actually a certified trainer!

But I started isolating myself, drinking a too much wine, just once a week, but a lot of it. I even started smoking cigarettes when I drank. I lost the desire to date anyone or even go out at all. It was all I could do to go to work and the gym. I also have two teenage kids and, Thank God for them, or I'm not sure I'd still be here. They are the joy in my life, truly wonderful kids.

So, now I'm depressed, demoralized and VERY concerned about my health. I want to get back on track so badly. I can't believe my self-destructive tendencies lately. It's truly frightening and I feel scared about my health and depressed quite often now. I worry that I'll die and leave my precious kids traumatized. On top of that ... I recently met a terrific guy who seems to be falling pretty hard for me. He's kind, attractive, successful ... and I feel just plain scared!

The funny thing is, people thing I'm so "together" and strong. Little do they know. Do you have any suggestions for me? Thank you for reading my story!