Overall, while this past week was somewhat of a disappointment, I am happy with what I learned about myself.
Date: 8/12/2007 10:09:42 AM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 1728 times
This week I realized I need to deal with my emotional eating issues. I thought they were gone. But, I realized that I have been on a "scheduled" diet or "routine" for 2 1/2 years. This is the first time in awhile where I've been sort of free. My colleague went on vacation for 3 weeks. He has more technical experience than I do and is at the "senior level". While my technical experience is better than it was 14 months ago, I have a long way to go. I'm pretty much managing everything. My company is currently going through a "transition phase". People are being observed more, fired, demoted or pushed out. Needless to say I was a wreck on Thursday and a semi-wreck on Wednesday. Nearly lost it on Friday when work was dumped on me by someone that doesn't have the right to do so. I ate carb heavy meals and through my rebuilding phase out the window. I went back to my plan on Friday. I didn't fast this week. I probably should've done that instead. I will try to note when an "emotional eating" phase is coming on and address it in a more positive manner.
I didn't accomplish all of my goals. Many of them will be rolled into this week. I will not add any new ones. That said, I am happy that I'm becoming more comfortable with "putting myself out there" when it comes to meeting people and attending events. I signed up for a lot of Nature/Hiking groups on meetup.com (To Be Discussed (TBD) in a later post). My dog got the time he deserves. I will make sure to continue with that. Men come and go, but my dog will be with me until God needs a big Newfie Mix to guard the gates.
With the exception of my playtime with Samson, I didn't exercise at all. I made my meals for the week today and arranged my treadmill (I have a space saver) so I won't have any excuses. Yes, I know the exercised would've helped me deal with the stress from work. Another thing I need to focus on is taking care of important goals. I've been going out way too much and spending way too much money. The going out filled the emptiness the break-up left. But, I want to take my road trips next Spring, build up my savings and I have to take my MCTS exam by next January (I have a lot of studying to do) (TBD in a later post - plan!). Another thing I will admit in this blog, is that I miss male attention. Not in a needy way. I'm okay with being alone. I guess it was nice chatting with the fella that went to Morocco leading up to our baseball game. Yes, chatting him filled a void, but it was more than that. If it was a needy thing (like after my last relationship), I would be hanging out with men that have hit on me since the break-up but clearly are not right for me and despite the fact that I'm not ready to date.
Speaking of men or friends (regardless of sex), I'm realizing that I can't force myself to like people that are not right for me. I love nature, whole foods, don't drink, don't smoke, prefer reading in a bookstore until closing in lieu of clubs, etc., etc. What brough this on was I've been asked my several to "hang out". Well, for most 20-somethings in my area that means a happy hour or bar. I don't want to do that.
Overall, while this past week was somewhat of a disappointment, I am happy with what I learned about myself. Regarding diet, I will definitely stick to my plan. I have to make sure to not overbook myself. I don't have anything planned this week, which is good. I need to take care of financial issues and get into the habit of studying. Focus on the goals I've set for myself. Going out is fine, but not 2-3x a week. Since most of my activities this fall and winter will likely revolve around football and the groups I belong to via meet-up.com, it will be easy to stick to a light schedule this fall.
As I mentioned in my previous post, this is a new beginning. I'm sure I will fall along the way. In lieu of being hard on myself, I have to dust myself off and keep going.
Looking forward to a new week.
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