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Day 3 of Water Fast- Yes! Yes! I made it!
My daily Journey to a healthier life style
Date: 1/7/2011 11:09:48 AM ( 13 y ) ... viewed 34159 times
January 6, 2011
I had a interesting morning. I woke up (around 6:00 a.m, when my alarm doesn't go off until 6:30 a.m.)after a long peaceful sleep. I wondered with my Lammy was, as she usually sleeps with me. I called her and she came crawling down for a pile of blankets just off of my bed. I guess she got sick of me moving my feet in the night. LOL. Canna used to sleep at my feet too, but as far as he could so I couldn't kick him be accident. I guess she is learning that as well.
I realized that I hadn't drank my other 32 ounces of water when I got up. It was still sitting at my bedside when I got up. I can't say that I was thirsty, but I probably should have tried to drink something. I guess I was really tired that I didn't realize that I hadn't had anything to drink in the evening.
When I was on my way to work, I was listening to KLOVE, which I do every morning while in my car. I found myself singing along with Mac Powell's song “By His Wounds” by the time the end of the song was over with I crying. I felt touched by God when I was crying, as if I finally let down some guard that I was holding up, preventing God from really reaching me. I really missed that feeling. I really missed His Presence. I guess in all the unGodly things I have been doing, as really made me numb to His Presence. It was very hard for me. It was the singing of the words, just saying them, kind of woke me up.
“He was pierced for our transgressions
He was crushed for our sins
The punishment that brought us peace
Was upon Him
And by His wounds
By His wounds, we are healed”
~ By His Wounds by Mac Powell
Even thought I had been sinning over the year and half, it was the numbness that I forged for myself so I could live with the pain. Honestly, I was hurt that Phil talked of marriage and said he wanted to marry me, yet it was a false promise. I was in pain, because I had him living with me, and it was a utter disaster and disappointment. I was having all these feelings, as I slowly wandered away from God. I stopped going to church, I stopped reading my Bible and I stopped praying and talking to Him. I guess that is why I felt so alone, because not only did I have a rocky relationship with someone I loved, but I some how lost connection with God as well.
I am ashamed to say I looked for love that I wanted rather then the Love that God had for me and wants for me. I am not the greatest Christian, but I have always believed that God could see my heart and know me when no one else did. It was just the other day, when I was in the shower, I was praying. I said “God you know my heart” I then realized when I was first struggling with Phil when he first moved in, I would say that a lot to Him and ask for guidance. Some where along the line, I stopped asking for guidance or even praying.
I have to also say that I was confronted. No, the word “confront” seems harsh and negative. It was more like kindly acknowledge something. I have to say that an issue was lovingly brought to my attention, which I was very grateful for. It was done in a very kind and caring way by a friend. I guess I never realized several things. First, that even though I don't think I made a difference or even inspire others, my actions might do so. And more so, my actions are seen by others, especially when I post particulars of my daily life online. Second of all, I learned that I might not have voluntarily walked away from God, but I still was taking various steps and making decision in my life that cause me to wander away from Him. I am very glad that I can see those things now.
I have to say that I feel very light and airy for some reason today. I usually don't feel this way until about Day 4 or 5. Oh well, I am not going to complain that I am feeling good. I guess that is one reason why I weighed myself. For a while I was doing it every day, but lately, I could care less what it was, as it was not the focal point. I have learned to eat well and eat right, so the only way I could or would overwhelm my metabolism is by loading my body with calories and not burning half of them.
I know that I should be looking at juicing recipes, when I am still in the possible “craving” stage of my water fast, but since I am not craving at all, I couldn't help myself. I found a lovely juice recipe that I will that I will add to my growing collection.
Cucumber~Celery Cooler
1 apple, sliced
4 medium carrots, greens removed
1 stalk celery
1/2 lemon, peeled (optional)
1/4 medium cucumber, peeled
Process the ingredients in a juicer and serve.
Blood Regenerator – high in iron and chlorophyll
-Carrot-Spinach-Lettuce-Turnip-Parsley Juice:
5 carrots,
6 spinach leaves,
4 lettuce leaves,
¼ turnip,
4 sprigs of parsley
Internal Body Cleanser Juicing Recipe
- Carrot-Cucumber-Beet Juice:
2-3 carrots,
½ cucumber,
½ beet with greens.
You can substitute ½ zucchini for the cucumber
Of course, since I am water fasting, I am brushing up on on what lovely things that veggies and fruits can do for your body. There is a couple hat I really liked reading.
Carrots – Contain beta-carotene to heal our eyes and arthritis
Beets – Good for liver and gallbladder
Spinach – Heal anemia and eczema
Celery & cucumber – Helps in reducing diabetes
Garlic – Strengthen our immune system and prevents colds
Parsley – Reduces edema and promote better kidney function
Tomatoes – Rich in Lycopene for cancer prevention
Any green vegetables – Promotes good digestive system and reduces cardiovascular diseases
Apple – Effective for liver and gastrointestinal tract
Pears – For healing the gallbladder
Grapes – Fantastically good in cleansing the colon
Papaya - Superb detox fruit for hemorrhoids, colitis, as well as ingestion by building enzyme growth
Watermelon – Good for the kidney
Black cherry – Regulates menstrual problems
I have to say that I am a little bit proud of myself for keeping such a lovely commitment as writing every day about my health journey. I have been writing for 72 days and my personal journal is 130 pages long! I can't say that I have been that committed to writing every day about my life and my journey since I was in my early 20's when I used to write in my journal everyday. I have to say that it is very liberating and stress-relieving.
I hope that I can get closer to God that I have been in the last year and half. I know that I have been getting closer, because of what happened earlier in the day when I was singing. I haven't really sang much in the last year and a half. I used to sing all the time to the Lord. It was just a little something I did. Sometimes I would start praying and in the middle of it, I would just start singing. Of course, I never did this around people, if I could help it. Phil caught me a couple times sing a couple times, when I was caught off guard when he came home when I didn't expect him. It was just a wee bit embarrassing for me. I honestly don't think he knew what I was really doing, since I was listening to music or anything.
I left work late again, just to gain a little of temptationless time, since today is my spoiler day when it comes to fasting. I keep myself busy mentally visiting Goodwill, Oddlots and Petland.
I went into Oddlots, to see if they had a couple things, that I was planning on purchasing from the Dollar Tree. I did find some toothpaste I like, and I found some deodorant, but I looked on the back of it and saw that it did have aluminum in it. I read that aluminum in deodorant is not good for you and can possibly cause breast cancer, so I didn't buy it until I could read up on it some more. I did find a lovely conditioner inflused with Camamille tea, which I used on my hair, just gave it wonderful, healthy, bouncy waves in it. I also found great buy in Oolong tea too. I usually pay $5.50 for a box of 20 tea bags of Oolong Tea at Krogers, but I found a box of 100 of Oolong Tea for only $3.00! I bought two, because I might give one to the younger Attorney since he said that he drinks it too, but it can get a bit expensive.
At PetLand, I even played with a couple puppies to keep myself busy for until after 9:00 pm., since being at home seems to be a temptation for me. Since it worked yesterday, I decided to follow suit today as well. I am really excited about tomorrow, because it will be Day 4! Yay for me! While at Petland, I was so very surprised to see a little Italian Greyhound. She was white and grey. It was so very sweet, and the lady at Petland, added me if there was a puppy I wanted to see. I told her “The Italian greyhound.” She was surprised that I knew that it was, as she said that many people didn't know what they were. I told her that I love them. I played with her for a while. She danced around on her little legs, gripping my sleeve anytime I put her down. She really wanted to be held. I played with her for a long time, and then gave her up because I was becoming too attached to her. I also played with a cute male Shih Tzu puppy, which was just so cute in the face. He was such a wiggle worm, and he would carry the little toy with him as I played with him. He made me laugh so much at his antics. He even still had the new puppy smell about him. I also played with a Boston Terrier for a couple minutes, but it was really rambunctious, that it was just dashing about and trying to bite me when I tried playing with him. The lady at the Petland said that he hadn't been played with much today, so he was probably very wound up and excited. The one guy at Petland tried to get me to buy the first puppy I played with. The Italian greyhound. He ended up getting her again and handing her to me. It was really hard, because for some reason I felt a really connection to this dog. She was just sweet, and wanted me to hold her. She licked my face quite a few times I was talking to her. She was $1,000 dollars, which I could have got a payment plan of only $40.00 a month. She was full blooded and she had papers. She was born October 31, 2010. It was a little after 9:00 p.m. when I left. I could have taken her home that night, but I was steadfast on my decision. Having a dog is a big responsibility and even thought my heart desires to get the dog, I know that I am not ready. It was very hard, as I really wanted to. When I got home, I really thought about it more and realized it wouldn't have been a good idea anyway, since I want to work on playing my older bills off and trying to get back to the financial place I was before Phil moved it. I have obligations and getting a puppy is responsibility that I am not afraid of, but it is the financial burden that I am not ready for at the moment. As I was thinking about it some more, I decided that I might seriously think about a puppy once after a year, so that I have a year to repair financial burdens that I currently have.
Sigh, I really connected to that dog, more so then I ever have with before. I guess it is because I am feel a lost regarding Phil and I am confused about my loneliness with God, that my heart is trying to fill the loneliness with a puppy. I don't know. All I do know is that I really had a lovely connection with the little greyhound girl. She was just a lovely graceful thing.
When I got home, it was well after 9:00 p.m., and I wasn't tired at all. If anything I was wide awake due to “wanting” of the little Italian greyhound. I just have to strike her from my mind because it is the for the best. Darn, it was so cold in my home as well. Since Phil is no longer living in my home, I turn down the heat so that it isn't running high all day, so it was a bit nippy the living room, but mostly in the best room, as the door was closed. I definitely need to get some plastic for the windows, which will help with the drafts. I took a long hot shower, which probably wasn't good to have wet hair when it is so cold in my place, but it was soothing to me, as I tried to talk to God. I told him that I really wanted to buy that puppy I saw, but I knew I had a responsibility, and it wouldn't be very responsible if I did buy one at this time. So, I spend some time contemplating things and talking to God, under the hot, wonderful streams of water. After getting my warm pajamas on, I dove under the covers (which was 3 blankets – two quilts and a crocheted blanket) with my heating pad. I tried to read a bit, but I guess with wet hair, I was just focusing on getting warm and forgetting the puppy.
My stomach was growling a little bit while I was laying in bed for the night, it was probably because when I was wandering down the food aisle at Odd Lots, made my mouth water, even though I wasn't really craving anything. My stomach felt a bit odd and heavily and tingly. It wasn't any pain or anything. Just a slightly odd feeling. I was wondering if it was my gall bladder that was giving me that feeling since it is very close to the stomach too. I drank some water, but it wasn't much, as I wasn't very thirsty throughout the day. I did notice that I felt a bit more colder then normal. I think it is because my metabolism must be slowing down, as well as it is really wickedly cold out as well, so it doesn't help. I am glad that I don't have any cravings, as I really hope to venture back into my kitchen regularly so I can clean a bit in there on Saturday or Sunday. I am sure if I have any temptation at all, it will be gone by Day 5 or Day 6th. Plus I want to do some planting and moving around in my kitchen, and possible put some plastic up on the windows, if I am really motivated. I will just have to see how my energy level is, since around Day 5 or Day 6th, I get a bit tired easily, as I now in now burning fat and no longer just burning the sugar on my liver.
EXERICISE: Walked 2.82 miles,
WATER INTAKE: 10 ounces of water with a little bit of lemon added to it.
WEIGHT: 134 pounds
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