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Day 3 of Water Fast – Another failure (late in the day)!
My daily Journey to a healthier life style
Date: 1/5/2011 3:29:44 PM ( 13 y ) ... viewed 33761 times
January 4, 2010
My evening the night before was great and I keep myself busy. I was reading and watching TV. There isn't much that I have been doing, since it has been so cold out. I have been trying to conserve heat, but camping out in my bedroom, and using the heater in there. I have tried to stay in the living room, but it is drafty and cold. I don't really want to be running two heaters, as much as it costs for me financially. I can't afford to go out and buy plastic for my windows, which I should have been able to do if Phil helped a bit with the other bills. I really need to stop making excuses, as there really isn't one.
I have serious thought about setting up some type of budget to pay older bills off as well as keep current bills up to date as well. I haven't budgeted much over the last couple years as it was hard, at times with supporting two other people. At times I was living paycheck to paycheck, which I had lived like that in years. I have always been really good with my money and saving it when I could. Phil has really driven me into the hole. Oppps, another excuse. I must really improve on that. No more excuses.
I was doing really good until I got home. Sigh! I really hate to say that I failed again, but I am still being positive. I was just so hungry that I ate a bowl of steams broccoli and carrots with some baby corn. I had that left over, and maybe if it hadn't been in the refrigerator, I might not have eating it. I don't know. I shouldn't have went into the kitchen. I was doing fine camping out in my bedroom. I think I will try to do that again to get over this hump. I am a little disappointed that I was unable to do it, but I am remaining positive, because I know that I can DO it.
I just need to override the feelings of hunger with thoughts and water, until can get past day three. Maybe it is better off this way, because if I am successful this time, then the 10 day of my water fast will fall upon Friday January 14, which might help deal with detox symptoms better since they are close to a weekend then during the week. It would be better on my job. Okay, I am pushing for that goal and I am going to work toward succeeding on this water fast.
I was doing really good during the day, especially at work, as I am just drinking my water and reading my book. But when I get home, it is where I really have to buckle down and have will power. There isn't any fresh food left, now so all I could really be tempted to consume would be either some crackers or what ever is in my canned goods.
Sigh, It can be so hard at times. It isn't that I want to eat bad things. I just want to eat. LOL Actually it doesn't help when I am really craving cucumbers and celery either.
LOL. I think the worse of it was when I was watching Veggie Tales, late last night (hours after I had my steamed veggie bowl) I was imaging eating the characters in the movie that I was watching. It is horrible I was imaging slicing up Larry the cucumber, and cutting Bob the Tomato into wedges. I was even thought the carrot characters looked tempting, as well as the squash ones. LOL.
I guess it isn't the best type of movies to be watching when you are trying to water fast. I like watching them because they are so uplifting and encouraging with my current walk with Christ. I think they are helping me get closer to God that I have been over the last year or so (due to Phil living with me). I know that Phil living with me can't be used as an excuse, but it hasn't help me get back on track either.
I am a little bit proud of myself that I still continued on reading my Bible last night. I didn't read a lot of it, but at least it was something. I didn't read much, as I was getting tired and I fell asleep around 11:00 p.m. Phil woke me up by text message at 3.00 in the morning. As he was feeling really horrible. I hope that he doesn't make this a habit. It was just the other night, that he texted me around the 1:30 a.m. to tell me that He was sorry he didn't call me because his throat really hurt, but we could text if I wanted. I find all of this really funny, because he always talks about how he HATE texting and having conversations by texts. It was a little bit odd, because I really didn't know what to say to him. Well, last night I told him I was sorry that he was feeling really horrible. I am sure he fell asleep finally, and I finally got comfortable enough to get some sleep myself after reading some of my Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince book. Wouldn't you know it, he woke me up again, around 5 a.m.
He was feeling lonely and missed how I used to entertain him by text messages when he was lonely. I just sat there and stared at the message. I really wanted to say “Well, you miss it now, but I haven't entertained you per text message for over a year and a half, per se because you always tell me how you hate TEXTING!” I wanted to also remind him that, it is funny that now he misses something about me, but I can see now that it is because he selfishly needs attention, and not seeing that he had been neglecting me for a long time now. I just kind of grit my teeth, and didn't say the honest, obvious things that he couldn't see. I must ask myself if I am weak for not saying them or addressing them to him. I really don't to fight with him, and that would have started a fight. So I will end up being very tired later on
I gave up on posting the daily “ Daily Power Thoughts” by Robert H. Schuller as it is really starting to grate on my “God” button. I don't want it to feel like I am pushing it into my life at the moment. It is kind of stressing me out for some reason. I will still try to read it everyday, but it won't be like some type of “homework” like lesson that I just HAVE to do. It will be more something that I want to do.
A second day of my water fast will start at 6:00 p.m. So I am really positive I will succeed, as I will not go in my kitchen at all when I get home. I will bring 4 or 5 bottles of water with me or as many as I need into my bedroom in order to get through the night successfully.
Wish me luck on this one!
INSPIRING QUOTES:
"Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together." ~Vincent van Gogh
"We will either find a way, or make one." ~Hannibal Hannibal
"If you never did you should. These things are fun and fun is good." ~Dr. Seuss
"I have always grown from my problems and challenges, from the things that don't work out, that's when I've really learned." ~Carol Burnett
"To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart." ~Donald Laird
EXERICISE: Walked 1. 41 miles,
WATER INTAKE: 48 ounces of water with a little bit of lemon added to it.
WEIGHT: Unknown
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